Or Not.

Changes: Two Months(ish)

If I started T on 27 March, which I think I did, I’m two days away from two months on T. Therefore.

Voice: fluctuates regularly. My theory is that is goes up a little the longer it’s been since my shot. In general, the direction is downward. Which is cool.

Facial hair: is still invisible to anyone but me, but getting thicker. I shave every other day, just because I love how fast it grows back. Sideburns are coming in the strongest, but it’s also coming in above my lip and under my chin.

Other hair: head hair isn’t thinning out yet, and I’m fairly certain my hairline hasn’t retreated any, but I’ve noticed a definite difference in the texture. It’s less soft, harder to run your hands through. Arm hair is still mostly invisible but everywhere. It’s creeping up the backs of my hands. It’s longer, which is weird. Leg hair - I have so much leg hair. It’s all visible, all dark, and it’s all over the place. Even my knees. It’s filling out on my thighs especially. Interestingly, underarm hair is actually thinning out. 

Muscles: are not significantly larger, but they’re really hard. Most notably my thighs, abs, and pretty much every muscle in my arms/shoulders. Stretching and yawning are even more fun now. 

Fat distribution: People tell me they can see a difference in my face - I have those forehead lines that most women don’t have, and my dimples are more obvious, which says to me that I’m losing a little of that fat layer females have that make their faces look curvier. I also see a little more definition in my hands and arms, feet and knees. A lot of my joints, actually. 

General appearance: I see very, very little difference. But I do get ‘sir’ more often, and I never get ‘ma’am’ from anyone who didn’t already know I was female. 

Energy: No sign of that surge of energy people talk about T causing. I still sleep more than my family can tolerate, am not particularly hyper unless caffeinated, and  still do very little exercising for no reason.

Mentality: I have noticed that when I decide to do something, there’s no, ‘Oh, I should do that tomorrow.’ It becomes, ‘I’m doing it right now.’ For example, yesterday I was really bored, so I went downstairs to use the bench press. Only there was so much college crap and random boxes that I could hardly clear a path to the damned thing. Now, this has happened before. Last time was before T, and I just said ‘Fuck this’ and went for a walk instead. This time, I cleaned that shit out. Moved pretty much everything to the workshop over the span of about forty minutes. And then I damned well benched a few. 

Emotions: are on a much more even keel. I don’t get very sad, and I don’t get ecstatic. When I’m happy it’s more of a glow, and when I’m sad it’s more like being irritated. I do get irritated, and I’m less likely to put up with the irritation. Same with sad things or things that piss me off; I just don’t put up with them. I take a step back from them, or just remove them from the equation. Which is fascinating; I could never choose to detach like that.

I think that’s all for changes. There are a few life updates, but I’ll save that for another post. Ta.